scattered but steady

Some people feel that life should be decorated and organised which is completely against of my nature.I do believe that life should be organised particularly when u r within the organisation u should be organised.But then what about life?Is it possible that at the same time u r enjoying the life and u r decorated and organised?I dont think so.Then life would be very particular,punctual,straight,etc.etc..u have no choice for otherwise.but u should be organised when u r a part of the organisation.then life's style and perception is something different.One proverb in Bengali---সবে মিলি করি কাজ,হারি জিতি নাহি লাজ .There is  one motto for the organisation that we should follow .yes something different to be organised.There is one and only motto to fulfill our job.we r all in the same boat.Time is not factor.but there are lot of things to do for others.so,we feel to catch the time.Though not much job could u done at the same time,so lot of undone work piled up Then time factor arises.should we forget that সময় বহিয়া চলে নদীর স্রোতের মতন?নত অত আল.

scattered mesmerisation

Most people like mesmerizing their memories.why not me?But there is some problem as I am inconsistent.No matter who would read this?only me.I would like to write for myself,to talk with myself,to wander here and there....etc.etc.so,I thought I am old enough to do such idiotic behavior. But u know there are lot of experiences I have gathered,I swear!When I think about my childhood ,I feel so embarrassing ,sometime feel good ,sometime I astonished is it me!!!yes,that little girl who even don't want rather can't talk with others,its me!!though it is true still now i prefer to listen other than talk.So what its my profession may be which force to talk.otherwise no-pay.don't know how politicians can talk so much!!they do it lavishly.Forget that what i should say that i cross more than forty years in this world.what a great job have i done!nothing and nothing.cant do anything for any other/rather for myself.is it frustration?may be/may not be.but it happens,when u look after the past .people r very much busy with their own schedule but when r u feeling that there is no time for u then u feel frustrate.But what should do?we too  have no time for others.always doing something and wandering with our own job.even then it makes me happy that there are lots of good experiences with different kind of relationship,which is probably not fruitful for future.But it would not be denied  their past existence.Because,present is always depends upon the past.If u do wrong even then it make ur past /right even then it would do judgment.we only can't realize it in present form.Always quarreling with each others.so the time past from the hand of time.